first time i wanna run away from here and just go home.
dun really think i am capable in managing this races problem here.
but somehow i wanna calm myself down and try to talk to myself.
that guy is not even part of the family now, and everyone know he is just pitiful old fool. so why shd i bother.
but its just not easy to keep positive in this case, cos i know its not the last time such thing gonna happen. and not the last time i meet this guy.
i am so screwed.
its not like i am the most stupid and worst person in the world. at least i didnt feel in that way for the last 27 years in Hong Kong. but i feel like a complete idiot here.
and then in the middle of the night and in the middle of the forest, i dont know who to talk to.
so tonight i choose to keep my mouth shut and try to live with it. its not like i can do it, but i try. its not really possible to run away from here anyways.
Language school visited, placement test done, but course date postponed.
Hanging mattress is out, warm n cosy sitting in the Sun.
Tea time with tonnes of sugar, so gonna skip the cake tomorrow, hope dont gain weight so quick.
Garden is still wet, so went painting the door.
New task tomorrow: painting day.
whole day in IKEA
got a bed side table, a lamp, a pillow, sofa blanket, a mosquito net, curtain n some storage boxes.
also some idea for the kitchen in our room.
our room is getting more cosy!
went to carnival in fleetmark.
saw some old timer, had a fairy floss, shoot some bullets.
had a look around Yves little primary school, and the playground he played in, so cute.
spent sometime in the garden under tge sun, went into the nice little sauna, sweat a bit.
"Life can be so beautiful." ~Yves
